“When you succeed in awakening the Kundalini, so that it starts to move out of it’s mere potentiality, you necessarily start a world which is totally different from our world.” ~Carl Jung

Shiva lingham - in, out.  “So Hum.” (Repeat).Vaginal muscles - clutch, clutch, clutch, release, release, release. (repeat)

I had just completed my homework for tantra and kundalini kriya class. It all seemed very systematic and ritualistic. I noticed nothing moving about the experience. As I sit in stillness, to observe the effect my Sadhana (daily practice given by my teacher) had on me, it happened. Suddenly, I was overcome, literally washed over, by great waves of pleasure. My hands began to move up my body. Then my body slithered like a snake, moans escaping my lips. Without warning, laughter; hysterical, spontaneous, unprovoked, pure-pleasure laughter erupted from within. I was out of control. Did I like it?

I couldn’t tell. 

Moments later, as if testing this force that had overtaken me, I moved to my desk to get some work done.  The waves were relentless; they kept coming. More unprompted laughter randomly erupted from deep within, deeper than the belly. This was a possession. It was at this moment I became less intrigued and more afraid.

I decided to forget the whole thing by way of sleep. My body had other ideas. Lying face down into the pillow, I felt my heart pulsing deeply & rhythmically, accompanied by a clear visualization of green light illuminating my heart.  And then the energy, the ecstasy, pulsing through my sexual center. I couldn’t sleep.  After much tossing & turning (and cursing of my teacher) and more spontaneous laughter, I found sleep.

The next day I awoke, after only 4 hours of rest, feeling fully revived and energized. The energy remained, but the overt pleasure had transformed into a more dormant desire & heat. The heat was felt in my thighs & a perpetual burning in my lower spine.  This feeling continued and intensified throughout the day, to the point that I began to resist it. Even in the resistance it never left, it only transformed into a less pleasurable experience.  Only after 48 hours did the feeling almost disappear. But the energy reserve remained an abyss. The fire was still burning.

What happened to me is what is known as a Kundalini Awakening - The awakening of the serpent energy that is said to lie dormant at the base of the spine.  Up until this point, I was ignorant, believing that kundalini awakenings only happened to those who sought it out, and only to those who were so disciplined, spiritually, to the point of reaching enlightenment.  I fit neither category. But the truth appears to be that it is a natural and healthy part of spiritual advancement.

My rendezvous with the serpent has caused me to look deeper into how we generate and expend energy.  Sexual energy is more powerful than any other that we possess, yet we often reserve it just for sex.  Using this source for fuel, for all aspects of life and not just sex and reproduction, has opened up an entirely new world of possibilities.  I need less sleep on this new energy form and my creativity is bursting. It only makes sense; our sexual center is where creativity is housed. When we open and release that energy and give it permission to manifest itself in different ways, a new world of creation is opened to us.

**Warning: this type of awakening of energy can be harmful to the body if a person is not ready to receive it. The intensity may be more than you are ready for. It should not be forced. It can turn your reality upside down in ways you cannot begin to imagine. I advise practicing under a reputable teacher when dealing with the Tantric practice of Kundalini Yoga. **